“2013”-An amazing adventure of living, loving and embracing uncertainty

Posted by: Naz Laila

This year has been a year when I felt more alive and engaged than ever. It hasn’t been a easy ride but an amazing adventure.


I knew 2013 was going to be a tough year as I was preparing for my final medical specialisation exam. Little did I know that it would be only a part of a multitude of challenges?  Facing a sudden and severe illness of my daughter was the hardest part.

Also pursuing my creative side and sharing that journey was an uncomfortable and vulnerable process.

When my husband also decided to start his journey in online entrepreneurship and continue his full time job, it added another dimension to the challenge we were facing.


I have passed all of my exams and completed my training.

I have now better understanding of my daughter’s illness and have more control over the trigger factors.

I have started and finished a few paintings and have written a few more blog posts.

I have taken the steps to make my blog look nicer and got it designed and custom coded.

We have survived my husband working full time and building online business.  It is still a lot of work in progress but he has met the goals he had.

I have created wonderful connections with a few beautiful creative souls through few online courses.

I have started to nurture my interest and passion for photography by starting a everyday beauty photography series.

As a family we have had more creative time this year than ever.


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 Behind the Scene:

I tried my best but often felt scared that ‘trying my best” may not be good enough.

I cried, prayed and learned to ask for help.

I practiced courage and held onto my faith when I spent three sleepless night in the hospital with my little girl leading up to my big exam day. I was not sure why I needed to be tested so hardly.

My husband had to work many late nights, early mornings and weekends to build his business. Again we have asked a lot of help from our family and I am very grateful for the wonderful support of my parents.

I have become a little more courageous by watching all my brave, creative friends and was inspired tremendously by their stories.


I have failed to adopt a healthier life style and suffered a few health issues.

I have failed to meet the expectation I had about my blog.

I have often lost my focus when I committed to two online courses at the same time.

I have struggled to establish a good routine for my creative works and myself.


You cannot plan for everything and no matter how hard you try you will always face uncertainty.

Your faith and strength will be tested many times and each time you will grow stronger and wiser.

You need to know the art of asking for help

When you earn your first one dollar from your online business (or art ) it will seem unreal and you will be so excited that you will celebrate by spending 5 times more than what you have earned and that’s fine. It’s an exciting adventure.

You cannot work hours after hours unless you are passionate about something and yet at times you will feel frustrated and want to quit.

To let your intuition guide you is an act of enormous bravery and only by showing up with that much courage you can invite magic to your life.

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  • Judy

    Hi Naz, good job in reflecting on the past year and jotting down your experiences and what you have learned. I will try to do the same. Any New Year’s resolutions yet?

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  • Gay

    Hi Naz,
    What a year you’ve had. I love how you’ve captured the highs, lows, and lessons learned. It’s a great inventory to look back on and reflect as we face a new year. Congratulations on all your successes. I share in one of your challenges for 2013, as I also had a daughter who wasn’t well. It seems your daughter is on the mend as is mine. Relief. Wishing you all the best for 2014.

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  • Anni May Jensen

    Thank you for sharing your full year of 2013. You have faced many challenges and found ways to manage through them. Cheers is to 2014 where new challenges will arise and to friends and family who support our pursuits to grow and learn.

  • Nikki Smith

    Beautiful authentic post once again. What great insights and achivements in 2013.

  • Razwana

    Wise words here, Naz – here’s to even more success in 2014 !

  • Robin Heim

    I can SO relate to losing focus at time throughout the year — especially while taking various online eCourses. Glad to read that you’ve come through 2013 with flying colors and a zest to continue towards your ultimate goal. Blessings and Good Luck!

  • Ginger Deverell

    Hi Naz, Thanks for sharing your highlights and learning from the year. There’s always so much to learn isn’t there, that’s the beauty of the journey. Your genuine self shines through and you are one strong gal! Your blog is beautiful, keep on going! xox

  • Laly Mille

    Hi Naz! I am finally taking a moment to go around our last circle before our new one next Thursday. I like how you structured your blog post and ended up with what you learned. And I love your words here: “To let your intuition guide you is an act of enormous bravery and only by showing up with that much courage you can invite magic to your life.”
    I’m going to pin them to my inspiration board! xoxo Laly

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