The theme for this month’s blog circle is “Love”. To my surprise I have found this topic the hardest to write about.
I kept thinking “what story should I tell about love that will reflect my personal journey but will still resonate with others , will add some meaning or provoke some thinking?” The answer was pointing to one specific relationship, the one I wasn’t very comfortable to talk about or write about. So I ignored that answer, tried to come up with other ideas, procrastinated but it didn’t leave me. It became louder and louder till I surrendered to it’s power and purpose.
I have been very fortunate to experience love in many forms, which include growing up in a very close net loving family, experiencing the intense love of my two beautiful girls along with many other treasured relationships. I have always tried my best to respond back with gratitude, acceptance, kindness and unconditional love to all of them. But it was a totally different picture when it came to show acceptance and kindness to my own shortcomings, my imperfections. I was the hardest critic; I was the most disappointed on myself for not being the best in everything I do, for making mistakes. I failed to show any love to my inner vulnerable self. My unconditional love was only reserved for other people. Then I came across the following quote
“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection.” Siddhartha Guatama Buddha
This quote had taken me aback, made me think about the way I was treating myself, the root cause of many of my pains and struggles. I realized that I needed to show the unconditional love to myself to be able to tell the world that I am enough, to battle the war against perfectionism, to stop the rat race. I needed the acceptance from within to flourish and embrace life with all its glory and joy.
This realization has transformed my life over last one year in ways more than I have ever anticipated. I have slowed down, I have opened up, I have stood up to face my fears more often, I have embraced change and uncertainty with more courage, I have let my imperfect self to be seen by the world because I am enough right here , right now, with the power of love and acceptance.
There are days when it gets harder , then I remind myself
“When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create.” - John Lennon
“I must learn to love the fool in me–the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of my human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my Fool.” ― Theodore I. Rubin
I hope we all can learn to love the fool in ourselves.
Please share your thought about accepting your imperfect self and showing the love.
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With love and Gratitude,