My dear little girl, I know you are going through a difficult time. Life hasn’t been as nice as you wished it to be. Many parts of your life has changed suddenly and left you wondering “WHY ME?”
You don’t want to be ‘the odd one out’, the one who is not lucky enough to have a perfect life. You don’t know how to fix all the broken parts. You don’t know where are you heading, your safe shelter is lost. This is a dark and lonely place and you don’t know how long you have to walk to find the light.
I know your tender heart is heavy with all the pain. I know you are trying your best to carry on, to hide your tears from the world, to keep a perfect smile even when you are falling apart. You are afraid that your imperfect story will make you unlovable. You are sacred to lose your sense of belonging; you don’t want to take a chance.
Some days you feel like giving up, it is too hard to pretend all the time, too suffocating to carry the heavy weight of a happy girl.
I want you to know that you are not alone in your struggle. I have been in your place, that place of loneliness, covered with dark shadow of hopelessness and unworthiness. I felt I was the only one in my surroundings going through a rough time. I was angry and sad. I had spent many a nights burying my face in the pillow and many a days hiding my face behind the big thick books. I felt crippled inside but I tried to carry a happy face. I didn’t have the courage to share my story; I didn’t want to be ridiculed. Little did I know, I was not alone in that struggle.
Years later, I have learned that many of my friends were also carrying a hurting heart. They were also scared to share their imperfect stories. We all had a little messy part of our stories that we didn’t want to reveal. We all pretended to have something that none of us actually had, “ A perfect life”.
So today, I want you to feel your emotions, do what your soul cries for. Cry if you want to, be sad if you must be. And then when you search for your answers in the vastness of the dark black sky, just know there are thousands more tender eyes looking at these twinkling lights and searching for the same answers.
My dear little girl, I can not just take all your pain away, I can not mend your broken life now but I can tell you, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I know that for sure.
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With Love and Gratitude,